A Pause, Not an Ending

People get tattoos for all sorts of reasons. Some honor someone they love, remember an important moment, celebrate a milestone, or carry a meaningful reminder with them wherever they go. Others simply appreciate the artistry and enjoy turning their skin into a canvas for self-expression.

A tattoo can tell a story, capture a memory, reflect a belief, or symbolize a lesson learned along the way. Sometimes it’s about remembering where you’ve been; other times it’s about celebrating where you’re headed.

I got a pair of tattoos years ago, and while I knew what I wanted and why I wanted them, I mostly treated them as something cool to do. I appreciated the artwork, but I don’t think I fully understood how much meaning a tattoo could carry.

Recently, I got my third tattoo.

It’s small—roughly 3mm by 10mm—and rests quietly beneath my right wrist, almost hidden from view. Yet despite its size, it carries a world of meaning. The design is a semicolon with a small red heart woven into it.

It’s not the kind of tattoo that immediately draws attention or sparks conversation. Most people will probably never notice it unless I choose to show them.

But that’s part of what makes it special.

It doesn’t need to be seen by anyone else to matter.

Sometimes the smallest symbols carry the biggest stories, and this little semicolon and heart have come to mean more to me than all the ink that came before it.

The semicolon is a quiet reminder that the sentence is not over, that there is still more to say. Paired with a heart, it becomes something even more meaningful—a symbol of love, resilience, and the choice to keep going. A reminder that even after loss, heartbreak, and grief, the capacity to love remains.

The last seven years have not been easy. The last two, especially since my mother passed away, have tested me in ways I never imagined.

Grief has a way of changing the landscape of your life.

For a while, I carried anger and bitterness with me. I wandered through a darkness so deep that I sometimes struggled to recognize myself. There were moments when the weight of it all felt overwhelming, but I kept much of it hidden from the world.

Yet here I am.

Still grieving.

Still healing.

Still learning.

Somewhere along the way, I realized that pain and sadness did not have to write the ending of my story. I could acknowledge them without allowing them to define me. I could carry the loss without surrendering to it.

I can choose how to move forward.

So I choose love.

Not because it is always easy, but because it is stronger than bitterness.

I choose grace over resentment.

I choose hope over despair.

I choose to keep moving forward, even when the path ahead is uncertain.

This tattoo has become the emotional anchor of that journey. It is not simply a piece of ink; it is a declaration. A line drawn between who I was during the darkest stretch of the last few years and who I am choosing to become.

So here I am—still carrying scars, still healing, still growing—held together by kindness, love, and the people who never gave up on me.

The semicolon is not an ending.

It is a pause between chapters.

A quiet reminder that what came before matters, but it is not the final chapter.

There is more to come.

My story continues.

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