Tag: caffeine

  • The Monkeys Got to the Caffeine Again

    There are certain things about yourself that you can spend years misunderstanding. You know something is different. You can feel it. You see the evidence scattered around your life like breadcrumbs, but you don’t always understand what they are pointing toward. For me, ADHD has been one of those things. I’ve known for a long…

  • Conflicting Operating Protocols

    I can’t sleep… and I know virtually everyone on this planet at some point in their existence experiences this. Many will see this as a recurring event. For me? It is an existential truth.  There is an interesting moment each night for me—the point where my neurodivergent brain meets the absolute absence of energy left…

  • Pass the Brown Bean Juice.

    If someone were tasked with writing my owner’s manual, the first page would contain one very important warning: Do not operate before coffee. I’ve learned a few things about myself over the years. Some are admirable. Some… not so much. But one truth has become impossible to ignore. I don’t ask for much from life.…

  • Self-Inflicted and Poorly Supervised

    I know I don’t need caffeine. That’s the first honest thing I write today, and I almost want to stop there because it already sounds like the kind of sentence people say right before they absolutely do the thing anyway. It’s not even about needing it. Not really. It’s more like… curiosity. Scientific curiosity, if…

  • When the Monkeys in My Head Won’t Lay Off the Caffeine

    I am a creative. A creative is someone whose brain refuses to run on standard issue. Creatives run on different batteries. We have our own alternative fuel. We don’t keep the same hours as everyone else. We certainly don’t see the world the same. We notice the odd, the overlooked, the “huh, that’s interesting” moments…